missions

im stuck in nashville preaching Jesus to many people. reading the bible as much as possible and im looking on the internet and have come to understand that there is hardly any truth. i just watched a video of some tribe being evangelized and their all laughing. Jesus says woe to you who laugh for you will mourn and weep. so basically all these tribe people who supposedly just got saved are in the process of finding themselves weeping. i really dont see anyone who is a woman wearing a headdress to honor the man who is her glory. i guess if shes glorying in her shame as it says in phillipians 3 then shes doing a perfect job of shaming her husband when she prays or prophesies. what im saying is that most people are living as God's enemies. minds on earthly things. Jesus died on the cross but this generation is currupt as far as im concerned. i tried to join a mission organization but no one accepted me. they wanted refrences from family, pastors, friends,. Jesus says woe to you when all men speak well of you. is that what these epople want. for everybody to speak well of me so that they know im ok to preach. thats oppisite of what the Holy Spirit wants. so im sitting here alone. doing the work of the Lord. i've been doing it alone for 3 years now and i havnt found a partner yet. i keep going to the preachers at churches but their folly is clear to me bc they all try to decieve me and introduce destructive heresies. ive been going through immense tribulation. we have to go through suffering to go to heaven.(Romans 8) so what i see is all these people at ease and comfort living in their homes in america and other countries not doing the work of the Lord and sitting back watching other missionaries go who want everybody to speak well of you in order to bge qaulified to join them. its heresy as far as im concerned in this generation. im sure there are people like me. i want to find them. where are they. i need fellowship but havnt gotten any accept by God. i've come across  some believers but it always seems that we never do anything accept say hi to one antoher and go on our way. thats a sin. my life is a mess my sin is a mess. my thoughts are a mess. im producing fruit though and walking in strength i've never had before. my body is dead but my spirit which is getting poorer by the day is alive. 97 percent of the poeple i talk to say their saved. so if you read this and your mind is on earthly things your living as God's enemy and rightly may stand condemned. Peter stood condemned in antioch which is stated in Galatians. how much more somebody who hasn't been with Jesus. what im saying is that this world is going to destruction and one sign is that people will disobey their parents in the last days. what i know is that anyone who is saved in the last 2 and a half years will be old because no one else will be honoring their parents. i can prove it. God cant lie and he has promised long life to his followers. so how can God be made a liar if somebody who is young gets saved right before Jesus comes back. my life is a mess but my words are true. 2 peter says to make every efoort to make sure your saved. if you do this you will recieve a rich welcome into heaven. God can't lie so matter how bad it gets always do that and you'll get your reward. im gone