my testimony

i hit rock bottom and had a choice of heaven and hell at age 21. i chose God got a bible and went outside at night and called on Jesus as loud as i possibly could. i then hitchhiked from nashville to huntsville and back in an act of repentence. i got home was led astray but later wanted to become a missionary and God baptized me with the Holy Spirit and fire. i was raised with Christ. that night i saw Jesus's glory...full of grace and truth( John 1:14) and entered into fellowship with God by the Holy Spirit. i started going through tribulation and it hasn't stopped. sure i've sinned along the way but i obey the commands of the new covenant and am currently working harder than ever before in my faith. i have my passport but stuck in nashville for the time being preaching the gospel. in my first years i was listning to the famous preachers but i dont do that any more. i also went to church but i dont go anymore except to  correct them and prophecy against them. i saw a vision that most people who go to church are living in lust so i dont want that yeast around. i read the bible a lot and get up in the morning around 4:45 but i should be getting up earlier. i have found that most people say they believe in God but the sad thing is their minds are on earthly things. so i've found myself alone with no one beside me.

missions and godly persecution

everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ will be persecuted. if that hasn't happened to you i would start living a godly life. not your own godliness but one that comes from God by faith. anyone who desires to be a true missionary will suffer tribulation. its a fact. in romans 8 it says that all day long we're considered sheep to be slaughtered. if this isn't happening in your faith then your faith is dead at this point. sadly to say. in 2 corinthians in the beginning it talks about suffering and even feeling the sentence of death in yourselves. in james towards the end it talks about suffering and speaks of job. job suffered for months on end, hoped for light but darkness and slimepits covered his paths. he lost everything except for His faith and his God. in 1 Peter the scripture talks about suffering in Christ, the sufferings that paul desires as he speaks in phillipians 3. in luke 8 Jesus speaks of the parable of the seed. some people fall away when persecution tribulation and temptation arise. there were 5000 men when Jesus fed them in John 6(they all wanted to make him king by force). it even says somewhere that the whole world was going after Him. in acts 1 the holy spirit says that there were only 120 disciples in the end. an example of people falling away would be in john 8 when jesus addresses the jews who believed in him and after testing wanted to stone him because they could not accept his word. another is in john 6 when the men no longer follow Jesus after he gives them the command about the Lord's supper. two of the greatest examples of this parable of the seed being fufilled for those who are persecuted are in Jeremiah when the isralites commit apostacy and jeruselam is burned and destroyed and the covenant is later broken on the cross of christ when the curtain in the temple is torn in two. the other is in matthew 24, and 2 thessalonians 2 when the falling away comes and those in this side of the cross betray and hate each other after persecution. in hebrews 6 the scripture says that if anyone has tasted the goodness of the word of God and commit apostacy they can never regain repentence. gratefully for them all things work together for good for those who are called so these select few cannot fall away. because in that passage the scripture gives assurance of salvation. "we feel sure of better things, things that belong to salvation" and in hebrews 11..."faith is the assurance of things hoped for" so basically these people cant fall away. if you want to become a missionary you will suffer and take the passsages above for an example that only few find the road to life. but be zealous to confirm your call and election and you'll never fall away(2 peter chapter 1)

nations

i keep seeing these mission organizations that are just going to a certain part of the world or are evangalizing communities and not teaching those communities to imitate the act of traveling about from city to city and nation to nation. this world is corrupt and only a few find the road to life especially in the last generations. so basically the great commission isnt being fufilled except for a few. i've loooked into getting into foreign countries and its so much harder then then in times of paul where they were able to just walk into any and every country without money visas and passports. now to get into honduras i have to have proof of income for the whole stay and can only stay 90 days. this problem is getting serious for missionaries.

going to all the nations

the great commission stated in matthew 25.

Jesus tells us to go into all the world and teach people to obey all that He commanded us. the great thing about this is that one of His last commands on earth is to go into all the world...and then He tells us to teach all the nations to obey everything He commanded us. anyone who can twist this scripture into something anything else than what it says is as it is written "conceited and understands nothing."(1 timothy) Romans says in the last chapters that these people "deceive the minds of the naive". in 2 john Jesus words say that anyone who transgresses and does not abide in the teaching of Christ does not have God. the scripture calls these people deceivers and liars. in The the beginning of Romans the scripture says that people know God's righteous degree that those who do such things deserve death. things such as murder, envy, liying, disobedient to parents, immorality, inventors of evil. so basically you are without excuse not to fulfill the great commision. just as Jesus said in the Last Supper. "now they have no excuse for their sin". The parable of the weeds is a good explanation of what happens to someone after reading matthew and the great commission. they either forget, endure for a while and then fall away after testing, decide to love the world and go after its desires, or finally someone may read this passage and with a noble and good heart, hear it and keep it, sell their possessions(matthew 19, luke 12) endure through any tribulation trusting God and His promises, and go into all the world sharing their faith and teaching and preaching sound doctrine which bears fruit to make that person either great or small in the Kingdom of Heaven. The thing is is that eternal life or judgment is as stake. it will happen no matter what you think so those who obey the commands of the Bible and have faith in Jesus will recieve the Holy Spirit to be with Them forever and see the Father in heaven. those who decide to succumb to temptation and lust will bear eternal wrath in complete darkness where there will weeping and gnashing of teeth. God's eternal power can be known by what has been made so men are without excuse. but the thing is is that if your loving and setting your mind on this world your living as God's enemy weather or not your preaching and teaching. So we cant just listnen to the word and decieve ourselves, we must do what it says. the problem is that in 2 timothy paul says that people will not endure sound doctrine in the coming times and will turn away from the truth. in hebrews it says that every trangression of the old Law deserved its just punishment so how can we escape such a great salvation in the Gospel, the new law. here  is a commandment that people dont put up with... 1 thessalonians, pray without ceasing give thanks in every circumstance, rejoice always. 1 timothy, i do not permit a woman to teach or usurp authority over a man, she must remain silent. these are commands but people say it was either directed towards that paticular audience or that culture. in 1 corinthians is says, "did the word of God originate with you or are you the only people it has reached. meaning that this word has reached everyone. second the culture doesnt work either because in colossians the scripture says "let no one decieve you by empty philosophy..by the tradition of men and..the elemental spirits of the world." 1 john says that. "the man who says i know Him but does obey what He commands is a liar and the truth is not in him."

eternal sin

the eternal sin is a deliberate outraging of the Holy Spirit. you have to trample on Jesus and profane God in a deliberate way. if you get bad thoughts but are making your calling and election sure as it says in 2 peter then this sin does not apply to your life and you dont have to worry about it. obviously we still live pure lifes but we cant go around doubting and not believing God who says He'll keep you from doing the unpardonable sin if you give diligence to make your calling and election sure. If you are chosen by God, all things work together for good so this sin does not apply to you.

missions

im stuck in nashville preaching Jesus to many people. reading the bible as much as possible and im looking on the internet and have come to understand that there is hardly any truth. i just watched a video of some tribe being evangelized and their all laughing. Jesus says woe to you who laugh for you will mourn and weep. so basically all these tribe people who supposedly just got saved are in the process of finding themselves weeping. i really dont see anyone who is a woman wearing a headdress to honor the man who is her glory. i guess if shes glorying in her shame as it says in phillipians 3 then shes doing a perfect job of shaming her husband when she prays or prophesies. what im saying is that most people are living as God's enemies. minds on earthly things. Jesus died on the cross but this generation is currupt as far as im concerned. i tried to join a mission organization but no one accepted me. they wanted refrences from family, pastors, friends,. Jesus says woe to you when all men speak well of you. is that what these epople want. for everybody to speak well of me so that they know im ok to preach. thats oppisite of what the Holy Spirit wants. so im sitting here alone. doing the work of the Lord. i've been doing it alone for 3 years now and i havnt found a partner yet. i keep going to the preachers at churches but their folly is clear to me bc they all try to decieve me and introduce destructive heresies. ive been going through immense tribulation. we have to go through suffering to go to heaven.(Romans 8) so what i see is all these people at ease and comfort living in their homes in america and other countries not doing the work of the Lord and sitting back watching other missionaries go who want everybody to speak well of you in order to bge qaulified to join them. its heresy as far as im concerned in this generation. im sure there are people like me. i want to find them. where are they. i need fellowship but havnt gotten any accept by God. i've come across  some believers but it always seems that we never do anything accept say hi to one antoher and go on our way. thats a sin. my life is a mess my sin is a mess. my thoughts are a mess. im producing fruit though and walking in strength i've never had before. my body is dead but my spirit which is getting poorer by the day is alive. 97 percent of the poeple i talk to say their saved. so if you read this and your mind is on earthly things your living as God's enemy and rightly may stand condemned. Peter stood condemned in antioch which is stated in Galatians. how much more somebody who hasn't been with Jesus. what im saying is that this world is going to destruction and one sign is that people will disobey their parents in the last days. what i know is that anyone who is saved in the last 2 and a half years will be old because no one else will be honoring their parents. i can prove it. God cant lie and he has promised long life to his followers. so how can God be made a liar if somebody who is young gets saved right before Jesus comes back. my life is a mess but my words are true. 2 peter says to make every efoort to make sure your saved. if you do this you will recieve a rich welcome into heaven. God can't lie so matter how bad it gets always do that and you'll get your reward. im gone